Today, I'm going to write about how I lost my virginity, and yes, I was pressured into it.
It was some girl and I.
· We were home alone chilling alone the lounge. I sat on a couch that was next to the HiFi listening to music (it was the Makaveli album).
· She was on another couch under the blankets watching TV, switching through the channels and looking for something interesting.
· She then got up, went into a room and came back with a video cassette.
· She put it in the VCR and started playing it. To stop me from seeing what was on, she stood in front of the TV and blocked my view by covering the TV with a blanket. It was one of them ol' skool 21 inch TVs so it was small enough to cover. She had the TV on low volume so I didn't know what was going on. Honestly, I didn't really think about it because I was concentrating on the music. I was probably doing something else too like reading a magazine. Dunno. But I wasn't bothered.
· She kept looking at me to see as if to say "I'm doing something bad here and I want you to ask me what I'm doing".
· I asked her what she was doing and she said she was watching porn and had to cover the TV because she didn't want me to see. I didn't care so I carried on listening to music. Eventually, she sat down to watch it. Still, I wasn't really interested so I carried on listening to music.
· A few minutes later, I got up, went to the bathroom and started running water in the tub because I wanted to leave her alone to watch porn. I jumped in the tub and started bathing.
· About ten minutes later, she knocked on the bathroom door and said she desperately needed to use the toilet. I tried to tell her that I'd be done in no time time but she insisted that I let her in because she was on the verge of peeing on herself. She said that there was no need for me to stop bathing. She then said something like, "you're a man..just cover yourself with a towel. Stop acting like a girl".
· Being young, I wanted to prove to her that I wasn't acting like a girl so I got my towel, covered myself, unlocked the door, sat back in the tub and told her to come in.
· She opened the door, got in, dropped her panties to her kneees, sat on the toilet seat and started peeing. She only had a bra and panties on. It didn't click that she was just in her bra and panties, and I wasn't even turned on to be honest. Sex was not on my mind at all.
· She finished but remained on the toilet seat. She just sat and looked at me. She started saying shit like, "I can't believe that I am in my bra, have no panties on, and you're just there failing to take advantage of me. I'm horny, in the same room with you and you are naked but you are literally closing your eyes. Are you gay? You're not a man. If you are, prove it by taking advantage of me".
· She remained on the toilet for a few more minutes questioning my sexuality, demanding to know if my dick worked at all and carried on belittling me. She said a lot of shit and eventually left. As she walked out, she said, "I'm walking out and you aren't even attempting to do anything. You really are a little boy. I need a man in this house".
· Her words really hit me hard. I felt stupid, worthless and ashamed of myself. Nobody had ever said that shit to me before so I felt I had to act.
· I finished bathing and went back to the lounge. There, she carried on with her tactics of belittling me. One thing led to another and before you know it, she asked to see my dick. She wanted to touch it so I whipped it out of my pants and I let her. She messed around with it for a bit and it became hard. She put it back in my pants and I sat on the couch. I asked to touch her pussy and she let me. I think I touched her clit and we ended up kissing.
· We stopped and didn't know what to do next. She asked to touch my dick once more and I let her but this time, she removed my pants all the way, got on her knees and then started sucking it. That was my first blowjob ever.
· It was rubbish though. I clearly remember singing along to Tupac's Hail Mary whilst she was sucking my dick.
· It was my turn to lick her pussy so she laid on her back on the floor with her legs open. I started licking the pussy. It tasted like nothing. It was dry. I didn't even know what I was doing but I'm certain I was rubbish. It was also hairy too.
· Still on the floor, she asked me to fuck her. We had no condoms so we had to do it raw. I put my dick in her and started fucking her.
· Honestly speaking, I couldn't feel her pussy. I couldn't tell whether I was in or out. I had no clue what I was doing. I couldn't even feel the warmth of her pussy, the wetness or anything. It felt like nothing.
· Within seconds, probably 30 seconds, I felt I was about to cum so I pulled out and ejaculated on the floor lol. I then froze. I didn't know whether to move or stay. I just froze. I had ejaculated earlier in my life via masturbating so I knew what it felt like when my dick was about to cum. She got up, wiped the cum off the floor with tissues and I went back to bath. Afterwards, we spent the whole day fondling each other but nothing else happened.
· And that's how I lost my virginity. I was pressured into losing my virginity. If I could go back to that day, I'd have never lost my virginity to her. She didn't deserve it.
I never felt her pussy and up to this day, I honestly can't tell whether I was inside her or not. We never fucked after that. We ended up being serious enemies though and havent spoken to each other for nearly 20 years.
I learnt two years ago that she was sexually abused by her uncles and brothers as a kid. The same tactics her brothers and uncles used on her in order to have sex with her, are the same tactics she used on me. They used to make her watch porn, make her feel worthless and then sexually abuse her. That's exactly what she did to me.
Anyway, that's how I lost my virginity. I don't hold what happened against her. Shit happens. We were the same age anyway.
I'm out so...